I’m trying so hard to not be that person. You know the one who feels jealousy or has ill will towards anyone, or envy what they have.

I feel like I’m being pushed out, like I’m not good enough. Well I am good enough, I’m not perfect by no means, but I’ve tried and it may have not worked out the right way but I tried. I’m still trying.

I feel like I’ve been betrayed and I really know I haven’t but I’m not sure why I feel that way. I guess I feel like I was never invited to really be a part of anything. Maybe I pushed away so far I couldn’t make it back.

I feel intimidated and I haven’t quite learned to stand up for myself, but I’m getting better at least I think I am. I want to be the best person possible but then you have those thoughts, you know the ones the devil puts in your head to make you doubt yourself and your very existence.

I know all of this is within my control, and I guess I just need to not worry so much about everyone else and what they think and concentrate on being a better me.

Thought for the day:

Stop excepting others to be what you want them to be and live for you.

Just my opinion

Bitchesbrew